Frustrations...
There are alot of things that frustrate me, or irritate me, and I'll try to add a little explaination to the reason of these frustrations and irritations. The first one I can think of is girls. The girly girls. The girls who walk around the school with their bag and go to their locker and walk up the stairs go to their classroom, sit, learn and have fun with boys and girls alike. It's whats underneath thats bugging me. They're not just 'having fun' they're screaming 'I WANT YOU AS MY BOYFRIEND, NOW!' And I'm saying boyfriend and not sex slave because thats what they want. A boyfriend. So they can show everyone around them, especially the other girls, 'look at me, look at me, I have a boyfriend!' They don't love this boyfriend, hell maybe they don't even like them, but they wanna be seen with them because then they have a BOYFRIEND! And they're always perfect, then we have a test they're always just standing there having fun but with their notebook (which is fancy colored and from a brand or name or anything that everyone knows) and they're acting like they have everything under control.
Thats another thing I hate, control. Atleast, the Dutch control. Japanese control and Chinesae control and all the other countries that have the same idea is perfect. The Dutch control is: This is what we want, now we'll do the obvious things to get there and with the time we have left, we''ll wait. And thats what kids at school do. They have their notebooks, they read and read and read and when they're sick of reading, they wait. WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?! For the moment that the words just fly into your head? That they look at eachother and say: 'Hey, lets get off the page, and jump into her mind! Then she'll make the test okay!'
Tests are by the way also overrated. Tests used to be made to check if you really know what you're ment to know. Now they're life changers! Kids get scared, nervous, stress and all those otehr factors which you, in the end, have to go to a psyciatris for which will say 'you need to rest' and you're going to be taken away just like Susanna in 'Girl, Interrupted' while you know you're not crazy, but think there is something wrong with you because you're so stressed out, and thats all because you thought or still think that your life depends on just 1 thing: Tests!
You know who are crazy? The skaters/punks/goths in my school. They're not any of the aside, they're just crazy kids who all followed one boy who once saw Avril Lavigne with 'Complicated' said: HEY, SHE'S FROM CANADA TOO! (that guy also came from Canada and now lives in Holland, how pethetic) And decided she was 'cool' and started to dress like the nerds behind her. Then kids saw him and saw Avril and thought: WOW, He's just like her! then we need to be like them, then we're COOOOOOOOOL. So they did that and they started growing and started to listen to Avril more and more and more and started to sing with a guitar in the hall of the school, because 'YEA, THEY'RE ALTERNATIVE!'. And they made a band which became the school band and they start jumping around on stage while all the other kids (mainly boys and girls who like RnB and Hiphop) stare at them like 'what the fuck are you waisting my fucking time for?' and those alto's (thats what we call them) look at them like 'who do you hate this music? How can you? We're skaters, and we're ourselves, and you can't be yourself unless you're a skater!' WELL FUCK THEM!
This also gets me frustrated, just thinking about those damned kids and those 'perfect' girls and the fucking fact that everything in Holland is so Ducth!

It's time for me to move to Singapore.
I already looked at some houses! There was 1 for 450.000 euro's that I really really really like! I wanna live there so badly because nothing keeps me here. I'm ment to live in a country that big and high and cheap and speaks English and is filled with Asian people. How perfect is Singapore then?
*sigh* I love Real Estate...