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Thursday, October 14, 2004

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 10:57:03 GMT

I LOVE GAY PEOPLE!!!!!!!
This week a Dutch gay magazine 'Expeszo' or something like that, send several of his magazines to diffrent schools. They did this to make homoseksuality an easier topic to talk about. A few schools send the magazine back, with the message that they didn't dare to show it to their students because they were affraid of the comments from the parents or students themselves. That really makes me wonder how 'normal' homoseksuality is to several countries and even to Holland! The country where pot, prostitution and porn are the biggest things! And then gayness is odd?
I have a friend who is biseksual, and I adore him! My mom is a stewardess and she works with guys that are HILARIOUS! What is the fucking problem?!
Maybe people think they have seks in a way they think is grosse? Because the biggest part of gay couples never have anal sex.
Is it the problem that there are 2 men or 2 woman? Why do guys think it's okay if 2 girls kiss because it makes them horney and if 2 guys kiss it all like: IELK!
I mean, come on! They are just like you, but they like men instead of woman just like you may like something else then they do!
Also I hate the fact that gay people can't marry! Everyone can be happy in the way they want, no matter what sex they are! PURE DISCRIMINATION!
So thats why I'm saying: I LOVE GAY PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 13:30:43 GMT

Frustrations...
There are alot of things that frustrate me, or irritate me, and I'll try to add a little explaination to the reason of these frustrations and irritations. The first one I can think of is girls. The girly girls. The girls who walk around the school with their bag and go to their locker and walk up the stairs go to their classroom, sit, learn and have fun with boys and girls alike. It's whats underneath thats bugging me. They're not just 'having fun' they're screaming 'I WANT YOU AS MY BOYFRIEND, NOW!' And I'm saying boyfriend and not sex slave because thats what they want. A boyfriend. So they can show everyone around them, especially the other girls, 'look at me, look at me, I have a boyfriend!' They don't love this boyfriend, hell maybe they don't even like them, but they wanna be seen with them because then they have a BOYFRIEND! And they're always perfect, then we have a test they're always just standing there having fun but with their notebook (which is fancy colored and from a brand or name or anything that everyone knows) and they're acting like they have everything under control.
Thats another thing I hate, control. Atleast, the Dutch control. Japanese control and Chinesae control and all the other countries that have the same idea is perfect. The Dutch control is: This is what we want, now we'll do the obvious things to get there and with the time we have left, we''ll wait. And thats what kids at school do. They have their notebooks, they read and read and read and when they're sick of reading, they wait. WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?! For the moment that the words just fly into your head? That they look at eachother and say: 'Hey, lets get off the page, and jump into her mind! Then she'll make the test okay!'
Tests are by the way also overrated. Tests used to be made to check if you really know what you're ment to know. Now they're life changers! Kids get scared, nervous, stress and all those otehr factors which you, in the end, have to go to a psyciatris for which will say 'you need to rest' and you're going to be taken away just like Susanna in 'Girl, Interrupted' while you know you're not crazy, but think there is something wrong with you because you're so stressed out, and thats all because you thought or still think that your life depends on just 1 thing: Tests!
You know who are crazy? The skaters/punks/goths in my school. They're not any of the aside, they're just crazy kids who all followed one boy who once saw Avril Lavigne with 'Complicated' said: HEY, SHE'S FROM CANADA TOO! (that guy also came from Canada and now lives in Holland, how pethetic) And decided she was 'cool' and started to dress like the nerds behind her. Then kids saw him and saw Avril and thought: WOW, He's just like her! then we need to be like them, then we're COOOOOOOOOL. So they did that and they started growing and started to listen to Avril more and more and more and started to sing with a guitar in the hall of the school, because 'YEA, THEY'RE ALTERNATIVE!'. And they made a band which became the school band and they start jumping around on stage while all the other kids (mainly boys and girls who like RnB and Hiphop) stare at them like 'what the fuck are you waisting my fucking time for?' and those alto's (thats what we call them) look at them like 'who do you hate this music? How can you? We're skaters, and we're ourselves, and you can't be yourself unless you're a skater!' WELL FUCK THEM!
This also gets me frustrated, just thinking about those damned kids and those 'perfect' girls and the fucking fact that everything in Holland is so Ducth!

It's time for me to move to Singapore.
I already looked at some houses! There was 1 for 450.000 euro's that I really really really like! I wanna live there so badly because nothing keeps me here. I'm ment to live in a country that big and high and cheap and speaks English and is filled with Asian people. How perfect is Singapore then?
*sigh* I love Real Estate...

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 18:58:31 GMT

This is me... Then.

Love and all that crap

Have you ever been in love?:: I guess...

If you have, with whom?:: No one worth mentioning.

Are you single?:: Hell yea!

Are you in a relationship?:: I just told you I am single!

If so, for how long?:: NO RELATIONSHIP! S-I-N-G-L-E!!!

Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: No, I believe there are more people for 1 person.

What is your idea of the best date?:: I don't know, I don't think you can have a proper 'perfect date' in Holland.

What was your first kiss like?:: Whoa...

How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: 14 or was it 15?

What’s the best experience you've ever had with the opposite sex?:: Oh, definitely the kissing...

If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: Yup!

Have you ever been dumped?:: Yup!

Have you ever dumped someone?:: Yup!

What’s the most sexual thing you’ve done with the opposite sex?:: Don't even go there...

Word association

Slippers:: heels

Hat:: Burberry

Hard:: Rock

Free:: Flying

Space:: Stars

Taste:: Trying something new

Good Charlotte:: BLEARGH!

Red:: Roses

Deep:: Sum41

Heart:: Fucked up

Cord:: Music

Cheese:: Holland!

Rain:: Frogs

Work:: Hate

Pedal:: Canoe

Head:: Think

Bed:: Cuddly!

Fluff:: Bed

Hardcore:: Walking away...

Race:: France

Knife:: Flesh

Jump:: Bungee jump!

I....

Am:: Fucked up

Want:: To move

Need:: Time off

Crave:: For a new house

Love:: Kiara

Hate:: *Wont answer*

Did:: IT ALL! MUAHAHAHA

Feel:: lonely

Miss:: New York

Am annoyed by:: A lot

Am tired of:: This country

Will always:: Be fucked up

Silly stuff

What is your favourite genre of music?:: Can't say that I have one...

What time is it now?:: 8:43PM

What day is it?:: Wednesday

When’s the last time you called someone?:: Don't remember

How much money do you have right now?:: €0,50

Are you hungry?:: Nope!

Whatcha doin?:: Nothing... 'Then why don't you go to your room and do nothing...?'

Do you like parades?:: Not the Dutch parades

Do you like the moon?:: Er... Yea...

What are you going to do when you’re done with this?:: Watch Girl, Interrupted, and you know what? I'll do that right now!

Isn’t cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: Er... No

If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: The ability to fly

Have you ever had a picnic?:: Nope

Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?:: Huh?

What about sock em boppers?:: Huh?

Are you wearing any socks right now?:: I don't wear socks

Do you think you are…

Funny?:: Sometimes, maybe, depends on where the person I'm funny to comes from.

Pretty?:: A little maybe.

Sarcastic?:: HELL YEA!

Lazy?:: Teehee

Hyper?:: Maybe...

Friendly?:: I guess, sometimes...

Evil?:: I guess, sometimes...

Smart?:: Uh-huh

Strong?:: Well... Yes and no.

Talented?:: In what?

Dorky?:: Sometimes...

Associate these words with someone you know (or don’t know)

High:: Freedy

Skip:: Sally Kee

Dance:: Michelle

Lonely:: I don't know... No one I guess...

Pen:: Merel

Flower:: Merel yet again...

Window:: Floor

Psycho:: I dunno

Brain freeze:: Myself... Can I say that?

Orange:: Carina

Sassy:: Cynthia

Jelly:: Monique!

For or against?

Suicide:: Not sure... It's very strange... You know what, never mind, skip it!

Love:: Against, it fucks your brains up...

Drunk drivers:: Hehehehehe, against

Airplanes:: I LOVE AIRPLANES! FOR FOR FORRRRRRR!

War:: Against, duh! Peace!

Canada:: Brittany, Alexandre Despatie... Oeh yea I'm for, but they should stop with the fucking French bullshit!

United States:: FOR! USA TODAY! YAY! *Woei*

Rock music:: Depends...

Gay marriage:: FOR!!! FOR FOR FOR FOR FOR!!!!!!

School:: Against... My school anyways...

Surveys:: For!

Parents:: For, but not too much.

Cars:: Pretty cars yea

Killing:: Well what do you think?

Britney Spears:: AGAINST! GONE GONE GONE! DIE BITCH DIE!

Coffee:: How can I decide if I never had any?

Pants:: YAY!

Would you ever…

Sky dive?:: Hell yea!

Play strip poker?:: Maybe...

Run away?:: I think so yea...

Curse at a teacher?:: I'd love to, maybe sometimes, I dunno.

Not take a shower for a week?:: I guess... Maybe once.

Ask someone out?:: I dunno, maybe (what’s with all the maybe's?)

Lie to someone to make him or her think better of you?:: Grrr... Can you guess the answer?

Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: HELL YEA!

Go scuba diving?:: Been there, done that

Write a book?:: Don't think I could.

Become a rock star?:: I'd love to! In a movie!

Have casual sex?:: Hehehehehe

Last questions

What shampoo do you use?:: Dunno the name...

What kind of computer do you have?:: Packard Bell Windows XP!

What grade are you in?:: I hate this question because I never know what to answer!

Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: I once did yea...

Or just make out?:: Hehehehehe... I did, but I hate to, because it's a cliché...

How many posters do you have in your room?:: 12...

How many CD's do you have?:: Not too much...

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 21:53:13 GMT

I Am Officialy Old

Thats right people, I'm old... I'm 16... Just turned 16 25 minutes ago. It's 0:25 right now...
*sigh* I noticed it when it was 0:02. Then I washed my face and brushed my teeth. My mom says 16 is an 'important moment in life'. From now on, I can drink, smoke and party legally.
But as I looked at myself in the mirror, I couldn't help but think:
In 4 years I'm 20... then I'm an official 20-something... and then I have 10 years to get happy before I turn into a 30-something and get the lable 'desperate' if I'm not 'happy' yet.
In other words, I have 14 years to go... and in other words... I just passed the 'half way to go' line. I spend more time becoming happy then I have left to make it happen.
And how far am I? I'm single. Thats as far as I am, which technically still is on the start-line, and I got a whole round to go! Yes, I have been kissed, so I got my 1st stamp for reaching the finishing line or 'happily ever after'. Is that really our goal?
I decided for myself that I never want to have children and maybe not even want to get married. How will people then look at me when I have a relationship with a man? Will they think I won, will they think I got a few more stops to go? I don't know and I don't understand...
Are we wasting time on making outselves the way that pop-culture today wants us to be or are we really doing what we want? If we are then where does the judgement coming from?

I'm sorry, it's late, I'm 16... This happens to you then, you start talking bullshit.
Sayonara,
Emilie

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 17:01:27 GMT

I Heart New York

I love New York. It's where my heart is. As soon as I have the money or the certainty that I will survive there, I'll move to New York, Manhattan. I've promised myself, as I said, that IF I'll ever get married, I'll do that in New York. Or else it would be like cheating on my true love.
It's together with Singapore, the only city I can go to after the 4th time. My 7th time New york is coming up on the 15th of september.
The picture on the background is, for the once who didn't know, Times Square, New York. though I can't say that thats my favourite place in New York. My favourite place in the city is at Tiffany's. Not inside, but infront of it. I can look in at the most beautiful things and look around me at the most beautiful things of the world. To me, New York is like heaven.
But why? Because it lives, it always does, and it will never go to sleep or die. New York is the capital of the world and the biggest and best and I want and love the biggest and the best.
Nothing is strange in New York, no-one will every blame you for anything there, because there's always something worse around the corner. Thats why it's, to me, the only place where everyone can be themselves without anyone judging them.
Ofcourse people judge, Stanford and Carrie from Sex and the City, as true New Yorkers (fictional, but true) loved to judge, but no-one will blame you for anything. You CAN judge, because no-one will hate you.
Ofcourse, New York can be mean and rough and cold, but at the same time it has such class... Big city and high heels.
You could live in New York all your life and stay there, because it has everything.
LA is, compared to New York, so fake! everybody smiles and is happy and everything is perfect. But around every corner is a shadow which no-one can or will see. New York is, like Alexandr Patrovski said 'honest', there's no big smile, there's no fake perfection. New York has it's wrongs, but has even more rights.

'Anything can happen... This is New York...'

Also, I thought Beautiful Day was a perfect Theme Song for New York. It's fast and changes but filled with feelings. Just like New York.

Sunday, September 05, 2004

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 08:07:37 GMT

10 Things I Hate About You

I hate the way you talk to me
The way you cut your hair
I hate the way you walk beside me
I hate it when you stare
I hate your stupid jokes
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much, it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme
I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you can't make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But most of all I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even a little bit
Not even close
Not even at all

*Becomes emotional*
I don't have anyone to base this oooooooon!!!
But I thought it was pretty though!

Friday, September 03, 2004

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 19:54:16 GMT

Whose Line Is It Anyway?

As you know, every one copies everything. Bags get copied, movies get copied, hell even people get copied! (I Want A Famous Face!) And so do tv shows! We saw it with 'the Weakest Link' Which went from England to... EVERYWHERE! We saw it with 'Big Brother', which got shipped from Holland to... EVERYWHERE! And now we started doing it with 'Whose Line is it Anyway?' Only we Dutch people decided to change the name to 'De Lama's' (which simply can be translated into 'The Lama's'). And the first season, which already ended, was a huge succes!
We have 5 comedians and just like you American and English people out there 4 in every show. And these are the people:

Arie! He's friggin' hilarious and very rude, which makes him extremely funny!
I saw him on the comercials for 'De Lama's' and I knew him and thought he was SO FUNNY! So thanks Arie, for just being there!

Thats Martijn. He has had his high points... He has had his low points...

Tijl! Yea, he's sometimes a bit too fast, but I'm feelin' him! He's cool! He's defenetly a keeper!

RUBEN! DA MAN! He is the man of the show! He makes it all funny and even more worth watching then it already is! He is the hottness, he is da shit! He is da poef! He is da abrakadabra he is the everything! (and all the other things fans like me can make up for him)

Kristel... Er... No comment.

SO! As I was saying, this show rocks, but especially to the main man and main goregeousness Ruben! *why oh why did he wear those glasses on that picture, no offence, they're extremely cool glasses, but he has such beautiful blue eyes!* I've made this DUTCH fansite/listing for and about him, but unfortunatly, he's just like Orlando Bloom...
- Goregeous
- Very sweet
- Huge lack of knowledge of the computer
But I'll be okay, I have my contacts

Are Dutch and interested in my Ruben Nicolai fansite? Then this is the URL:
http://www.ruben-nicolai.org/
My pwetty webswite...

So... Thats all folks!
Sayonara!
Emilie

Saturday, July 10, 2004

Sat, 10 Jul 2004 17:42:06 GMT

Me, myself and I
Stole this from a 'rondom person' -pout- -blink- -wink-

GENERAL:
:x: name= Emilie
:x: piercings = NONE! Not even in my ears! Now THAT is sad!
:x: tattoos = Nope... *sigh*
:x: height = How should I know? I know I'm 1.76 in meters
:x: shoe size = whats my shoe size... *checks* Doesn't say... I think 10 or 11...
:x: hair color = Dark brown! Very dark! But not black
:x: siblings = 2 half bro's and 1 half sis, but they're more like... I dunno, other family...

LAST:
:x: movie you rented = I KNOW! Bridget Jones's diary! GREAT movie! I love her life...
:x: movie you bought = Hm... I think it was Pirates of the Cearibbean...
:x: song you listened = Wonderwall by Oasis, makes me think of Ruud van Nistelrooy
:x: song that was stuck in your head = I dunno what it's called... it's by O-zone
:x: cd you listened to = Elephunk - Black Eyed Peas, they ROCK
:x: person that's called you = My mom...
:x: tv show you've watched= Sponge Bob! I luv the marathon!
:x: person you were thinking of = Sietse... But that's a completely diffrent story

DO:
:x: you have a crush on someone = Hmm... Maybe a little, but nopthing serious
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = Abso-fucking-lutely
:x: others find you attractive = I guess, I dunno, how the fuck should I know?
:x: you want more piercings = I have piercings?!
:x: you drink = Alcohol, no. Ice Tea, HELL YEA
:x: you do drugs = Na-ah
:x: you smoke = *shakes head* Nope!
:x: you like cleaning = Defenetly not, I swear, I once had to, and I was scared to death, I was completely shaking!
:x: you like roller coasters = HELL YEA!
:x: you write in cursive or print = Whats print? hm... Guess that then

FAVORITE...(at the moment):
:x: song = Wonderwall by Oasisi, because of the RVN thing...
:x: thing to do = I dunno, taking a bath?
:x: thing to talk about = Celebs!
:x: sports = SOCCER ON TV!!! AAAAAAH RUUD!
:x: drinks = Ice Tea, Ice Tea, Ice Tea, Lipton, Lipton, Ice Tea
:x: Movie = Moulin Rouge, Notting Hill, Pirates of the Caribbean, Austin Powers 1, 2 and 3, The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen, Queen of the Damned, Hercules, Sleepy hollow, Blow, Shrek 1 and 2, Thirteen, Finding Nemo, A Knights Tale, Not, Another Teen Movie, Cowboy Bebop, Spirited Away, Lord of the Rings 1, 2 and 3, Kill Bill 1 and 2, Once Upon A Time In Mexico, Troy, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate factory, Chicago, Catch me if you can, Ali G indahouse, My Big Fat Greek Wedding
:x: band/singer = Black Eyed Peas
:x: holiday = SUMMERRR!

HAVE YOU:
:x: ever cried over a girl = No...
:x: ever cried over a boy = Jup...
:x: ever lied to someone = Maybe...
:x: ever been in a fist fight = Just for fun!
:x: ever been arrested = Nopiedopie!

WHAT:
:x: shampoo do you use = I have no idea, something like Futuris or something
:x: shoes do you wear = I like heals and I cannot lie!
:x: are you scared of = Grasshoppers and other bugs... And needles...

NUMBER:
:x: of times I have been in love? = Twice
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = Twice
:x: of hearts I have broken? = Two... No three!
:x: of boys I have kissed? = 2!

Thursday, July 08, 2004

Thu, 08 Jul 2004 18:42:51 GMT

No means yes...
It's the 3rd time I type this because the other 2 times, by fucking computer actel like a fucking a-hole and fucking deleted my fucking message!
Anyhoew!
I love Disney! I always have, but the older I get, the more respect I get for Disney.
The old Disney movies, not the new ones, because the new movies suck monkey butt! I am kinda interested in that pirate island movie though, but I think I'll think it sucks when I've seen it because it has no romance what so ever, and thats a must in movies for me. Atleast a tention.
Take my favourite movie for example: Hercules.
I know it's one of the worse watched Disney movies all time, but I can't help but LOVE it! and everything about it! Especially the characters!
Meg! My favourite of them all! Now THAT is a feminist cartoon character. Belle is a good runner up, and so is Esmeralda, but no-one beats Meg! the way she looks at men and how she maked very adult comments for a kids movie, makes her worth remembering! I especially like the quote's:
-Hades: 'They couldn't handle him as a baby, I need someone who can... Handle him as a man.' Meg: 'Hey, I've sworn off man handling!'-
-'I'm a damsel, URG! I'm in distress! I can handle it... Have a nice day...'-
-Herc: 'Are you alright, miss...er...' Meg: 'Megera, my friends call me Meg, atleast they would if I had any friends.'-
-'So, did they gave you a name along with all those rippling pectorals?'-
-Herc: 'I... er...' Meg: 'Are you always this articulate?'-
and ofcourse, the one everyone still remembers:
'ah, you know how men are, they think 'no' means 'yes' and 'get lost' means 'take me I'm yours!''-
What cartoon character, no wait, what DISNEY cartoon character says that? There you go!
Also, I LOVE the way she looks! I once read a revieuw which said she must be the most ugly heroïne ever, but I LOVE her! Except for the eyebrows, I like the form, but not the parts nearest to her nose. but on this picture on the right, they're great! and the hips thing rocks! I still try to do it like she does it, SO SEXY!
But she isn't the only char I like, I've always had a thing for bad guys! Except the Tarzan dude, he sucked, but Cruella DeVille was AMAZING, and Ursula rocked, and also Hades is AMAZING!
Who can forget that oh so amazing quote: 'No harm, we dance, we kiss, we smootch, we carry on, we go home happy, what do you say? Come on?'
Thats a classic! I love the fast talking, he's so darn cool! and the hair thing, like wow! yea, I made up my mind, he's my favourite Disney villan! I don't really think he's that evil btw, he's just... Cool
Oeh! I just rememberd! He was one of the first to use 'duh!' THATS SO COOL! Wowza...
Quotes from Hades:
-Hades: 'and now that I set you free, what is the first thing, you're going to do?' Titans: 'Destroy him!' Hades: 'Good answer'-
-Titans: 'Destoy Zeus!' Hades: 'Er... Guys, Olypus would be that way...'-

I don't feel like typing anymore. So now you can kiss my natural black behind!
DO I HAVE A NATURAL BLACK BEHIND?!
nope...
Oh...
Yea...
So...
Bye bye wonderboy!

Saturday, July 03, 2004

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 09:55:45 GMT

It's over...
It's over, the end, no cup for Holland... We lost to the Portugese, 2-1, and all 3 of the goals were made by the Portugal. Thanks for that btw!
But now, the next thing happened:
After the game, Ruud went to the Dutch press and expressed his feelings, and he said:
'It's very easy to say this, but I think that the refree gave alot of 50-50's to Portugal.'
So now, the referee went to the UEFA and Ruud was found guilty to insulting the referee. So now HE CAN'T PLAY 2 GAMES! How fucked up is that?!
He is the sweetest person in the world, he can deal with losing!
When Portugal won, he emediatly walked over to Ronaldo (who is also player at Manchester United, like Ruud) and congratulated his! Proof:
See? AND STILL THAT FUCKING REFREE ACTS LIKE A ROYAL ASSHOLE!
I fucking hate that guy... I used to think he was a good referee, but noooooooooo I was wrong! Like I have been so many times before! Well, I love ya Ruud! and I support ya!
He;s getting married btw! dunno when exactly, but I know it's this month! Cool huh? I'm very happy for him!
Oh, you know, another thing at football that pisses me off, in the way that I'm sad about it? That if you're 30 you're concidered old and need to stop! We're losing ALOT of extremely good players because they're too old!
Jaap Stam...
Frank de Boer...
Maybe Edwin van de Sar, which I'm really sad about, because he ROCKS! I luv Ed, like I said before...
*sigh* I hope Waterreus will take his place IF he quits, because he may still do the WK in 2006, but I'm not sure if he will...
Hope he will!
Please?
For me?
Anywaydles!
I dunno what to talk about anymore...
Here's a piccie I feel like posting:

There ya go!
and here are some of my blinkies:

Okay, thats what I wanted to say, peace out...